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11 05 17 // Life

on Nov 05, 2017
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This morning I ate leftover potato soup zapped in the microwave, got a shower with diy'd chamomile tea soap, and sat down to my desk dressed in black shirt with a purple dragon on the front and jean capris. It's hot out and a thunderstorm is rolling in. ... It's almost 80 degrees out. Like most days though recently that's how my day begins. I check my bullet journal for what I need to get done and I do it until lunch time where I normally have a fresh salad and a veggie burger.
Right now my daily tasks are my digital internship, studying for certification, and on Thursdays and Fridays that usually switches to working on whatever class I'm taking from Uni of the People.

In the afternoon you'll find me either reading a book for review, listening to podcasts, or knitting socks. I knit socks because I don't have any, they last longer than store bought, and it's a step towards self sufficiency. Sometimes I do research. Right now I'm interested in Cultural Memory. I'm currently listening to the audio book version of "An Indigenous Peoples History of the United States". I haven't had the time to work on my Japanese or Esperanto but I plan to pick it back up after I clear some of my study commitments. I want to fit in time for meditation and qi gong when I can. I'm currently a part time vegan and part time vegetarian. That's my life right now...

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10 11 17 // Burned

on Oct 11, 2017
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What would you do if at this very moment you had to drop everything? No going back. You have to leave your house. What would you bring with you? How long would it take? Time is a factor here... Let's say, you have 2hrs. That's a liberal amount of time. Some people aren't so lucky. So, what would you take with you?

For me, it's difficult. I've been in situations where I've had two days, if even that, to get what I owned safe and it wasn't enough time. I lost a lot of things that were important to me. It sucked. But life goes on. You are going to have to strike a balance between preserving what cannot be replaced and preserving things that are essential to your survival in the coming weeks. For all purporses your old life? Well, those bridges are burned.

Tell me what you would bring in the comments...

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10 10 17 // UOP

on Oct 10, 2017
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I'm a student at Univeristy of the People now and by the end of the month I will have completed my first semester. I've never attended a digital university. Much less one that didn't require me to take out a loan to pay for it. But, I have to say that I love it. I didn't expect to. I assumed like a lot of people that if it didn't cost a lot there had to be a catch. Which is the exact opposite of what I normally think when it comes to technology. I constantly want to experiment with the new and push my boundaries. So what's the difference between the two? Why is it that things that affect our lives, outside of cyberspace, can be seen as a massive risk wheras experimenting with new technologies is just seen as learning something new? We need to push ourselves in both worlds to try new things at all times. Constantly pushing at the boundaries at what makes us comfortable in order to grow. Stagnation is not an option. ...

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08 23 17 // Eclipse

on Aug 10, 2017
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Space is f*ing awesome.

I got to experience my first solar eclipse this week at the very last moment. I was one of those people who planned for this for months and ended up not getting solar eclipse glasses. Not my best moment. Luckily right as the eclipse was starting I was driving around in utter desperation looking for glasses and found some for free. ...

Now solar eclipses are completely different from Lunar eclipses. If you're standing outside everything will feel like a high definition photo. Like those epic photo filters except it's real and it will throw you off. Then, slowly over about an hour everything will turn orange tinted and shadows with sharpen. You'll start to see those cool silver ripples on the ground from the tree leaves. Then it will get quiet. The temperature will start to drop. There will a breeze and then everything will go bright purple like you are another planet. From there it's lights out. Everything will get dark, so dark that you will have trouble seeing. The insects will start singing and there's this feeling of otherworldliness. At this moment you need to look up and that's when you'll see the final part of the moon covering the sun and it will appear black with a silver ring and you won't be able to stop staring. It will end too soon for you and then the whole amazing process reverses and it's over.

It's f*ing over...

...and all you can remember is that feeling that words cannot describe. Is it awe? Wonder? I don't know. All I know is....

Space is f*ing awesome.

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07 30 17 //

on Jul 30, 2017
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Micro Update:
<< Finishing up medical coding so I've got a little more time on my hands. Decided to learn Japanese. >>

Ok guys, I'm back. Back from the hell hole that was constant study of something I may be kind of good at but don't necessarily like. Also known as Medical Coding or a copy paste programming language from hell that required a stack of books and medical knowledge to do it properly.

I've decided to pick up learning Japanese. I already know a decent amount of vocabulary but I've never formally or even informally studied it before. I don't think it's going to be too difficult though. The difficulty in any language learning project happens at two points. The first point being starting and the second point being getting from intermediate to advanced. For me, I've got a third hurdle. Cash. Yeah. I'm doing this with a budget so unforgiving that it's lower than the cost of most rented textbooks. So, we'll see how this goes. Wish me luck.

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05 02 17 // Reading Challenge

on May 02, 2017
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In addition to medical coding this year I've been trying to challenge myself to read widely outside books I would normally read (one of the reasons I haven't been blogging). At first the challenge was just to get outside my comfort zone and join a challenge with other readers. It's really expanded since then. I've been inundated with books, discovered an interesting community on Twixxer of book reviewers, writers, poets & authors. I now get free books in the mail which I never thought was possible and end up in extremely interesting conversations and livetwexx sessions. It's been eye opening to say the least and

I know burnout can't be far off but for now this is something I've been missing since I haven't had time to program and learn new technologies. It's been worth it so far. I probably won't continue this challenge to the end of the year. But who knows. So, far I've read 30 books. There are other challenges I'd like to get back to soon though such as, Camp NaNoWriMo, learning Python, Finishing Esperanto etc. But for now this challenge has been a success. What have you challenged yourself do to this year?

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04 26 17 // Medical Coding

on Apr 26, 2017

So it's been a while. ... I probably won't be able to blog regularly until this summer because of "Medical Coding". This course is taking up all my time but it's made me realize a few things.

  1. I miss programming. Real programming. cries
  2. Manuals for looking up codes is so inefficient it's evil.
  3. Why hasn't medical coding digitized this shit yet?
  4. Operative reports were invented by Satan.

That's pretty much it.

But seriously, I have three manuals dedicated to medical coding, thousands of pages, and they are out of date within a year. How many trees are killed in this field of study? I have no idea, but it has to be whole forests worth. If they would digitize this information it could be updated instantly. No trees would be harmed. And I could quickly look up relevant codes at a fraction of the time it takes me to lug around these manuals and go alphabetically through them.

I've tested it out. 2 hr. exams in medical coding can be shortened to 30 minutes with digital tools and they are accurate.

Get with the times!! Go digital!

That is all I have to say for now. ...

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02 23 17 // Stress & Efficiency

on Feb 21, 2017
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Have you been stressed lately? I know I have. To the point where my writing has all become lengthy rants. I'm sorry about that. Sometimes we have to step away from what is causing our stress and do something completely different. We get stuck in a rut.

Lately I've been blaming a lot of my problems on the current state of politics and the attacks on people's civil rights. That's a big part of my daily life right now and I can't do anything about it. At least it feels that way. Because I'm stuck at home all of the time.

I'm currently recovered enough to do things but not enough to have a job. So I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.

I don't get to get out and do things that I want to and it all stacks up. It builds into an emotional monster. On top of that, I have expectations for myself. There's things I have to do each day and they keep adding up. My expectations though, never yield. It's the perfect storm for anxiety.

Right now one of my downfalls is efficiency. I feel I need to be efficient with the time I have right now. I expect to be able to be organized. Get multiple things done quickly. And just maybe start a side business or two. It's a slippery slope. So, instead of having time to take a breath. I'm running around on the net trying to get things done. I try to use efficient software. I try to learn the best SEO tactics. None of this is worth it. Your health is always first.

Don't get caught in a downward spiral when things are looking up. Take it slowly. Find your passion. Don't scramble. Remember to breathe. Those things you thought were so important do get done will still be there afterwards. To do's are infinite. You are not. Your time. Your life on this planet is oh so short. Please remember that you're not supposed to rush to get things done only to expire without actually living. Take a deep breath and step away. ... Enjoy the world around you.

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01 26 17 // Learn Something, Do Something

on Jan 26, 2017
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Life and goals always take different paths. I had wanted to keep up with the politics of this election, and in a way I am. But not like I wanted to in December. I'm on Twxxer again. I'm not taking any courses right now. I can't stomach it. Self-care has to take importance when everything feels like it's going to shit.

Right now I'm working on several small projects. Archiving things with The Internet Archive for one. Following Alt accounts. I learned how to knit some new things. Reassuring people has been a big one. There's a lot of people out there that are afraid right now. Reading, a lot. I'm hoping to work more on my Esperanto soon and break the Intermediate barrier.

That's some of it. I have at least five more things I'm working on. Which is why some of you thought I died when I wasn't online for a while. I had a terrible cold and at one point I didn't think I was going to recover. But I ended up recovering faster than my family members did. Which has never happened before as long as I can remember.

So, I want to thank you all. Thank you for caring. It meant a lot. <3

And I want to ask you. What have you learned to do recently? Have your goals lined up with life so far this year? Or do you find yourself going off towards a different path? Is it good? How has it changed you?

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01 16 17 // Diverse Reads

on Jan 16, 2017
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I'm taking a diverse reads challenge this year. I don't know if I'll win, probably won't, but I thought it would be interesting to try. One of the main rules of the challenge is that I can only choose books that have been written by diverse authors and that I have to write a 300 word review afterwards.

So while I'm struggling with a severe cold. I've read 10 books so far and written nine reviews. I'm hoping if I still feel alright later today I'll get another book read. I'll be putting a short list of the best books on here as I go. But don't worry. I won't be adding the reviews here. I have a Stumblr account for this particular challenge.

But I wanted to ask. Have you read any diverse books lately? If so, what one was your favorite and why?

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01 01 17 // Happy New Year

on Jan 01, 2017
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  • Memorize All Esperanto Correlatives.
  • Get to C1 Level in Esperanto.
  • Get to B1 level in French.
  • Take the ReadMOD Challenge.
  • Get through my stack of books I need to read.
  • Meditate
  • Get back into my Qi Gong practice.
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12 14 16 // What Now?

on Dec 14, 2016
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" I have never let my schooling interfere with my education."
~ Mark Twain

Class is over. So now I get to study whatever the hell I want to. So, I'm starting with the stuff that seems extremely important now. A type of winter crash course on politics.

  • Finish Journalism Specialization
  • America's Written Constitution
  • Top 10 Social Issues for the President’s First 100 Days

I'll also be studying other subjects & reading a lot. So hopefully I'll get this all done as fast as possible.


  • Hannah Arendt, Totalitarianism
  • Jeffery D. Clements, Corporations Are Not People: Reclaiming Democracy from Big Money and Global Corporations
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11 26 16 // Yellow Woman

on Nov 27, 2016

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I haven't been able to write for a while with finals coming up and the holidays. I've been doing research on "Yellow Woman" both the story by Leslie Marmon Silko and the pueblo folktales. Yellow woman is a Pueblo kachina or spirit and there are many stories about her abduction by a trickster or coyote.

In the main story by Silko, which is just a generalization, a woman goes to the river to fetch water and is abducted. The story changes and in some her husband goes after her with the help of Spider Woman and her magic. In others she flees and finds her own way home. Some have more magic than others. Some are modern and some are old stories passed down through the generations with minor additions added here or there. But they are all anchored to place. You can walk the path even today where Yellow Woman went to fetch the water from the river. It's a real place. The story is as alive today as if was just told and in that way it reminds me of the Nordic sagas. Real places. You can walk the stories. They may have even been real once. ...

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11 22 16 //

on Nov 22, 2016
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There were warnings whispered by the ghosts of the past.
Collective memory behind the glass.
Tall bones of iron, brick, and wire.
Born of hate, fear, an' fire.


Breathing flames and leaving ash and desolation.
Arose to feed on every nation.
Vows forged to never forget.
Fell on deaf ears without regret.

Sifting through they found the embers.
of the sleeping monsters cinders.
They fed it spoon by spoon.
And wished it reach to the moon.

Soon it was strong and rose again.
They shouted loud for it to end,
the bright cities of life and care,
to burn it down with it's hot air.

It blotted the sun and fed the darkness.
Rose the ghosts of hate; the heartless.
Armies crawling arose from fetid soil.
To join those in their great toil and drink the finest of black oil.

People screamed, the shot, the blast.
But only heard the heartless laugh.
No one cared what happened next.
Death and torture fattened checks.

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11 18 16 // A Thought...

on Nov 18, 2016
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"Healing yourself is connected with healing others" ~ Yoko Ono

Hope you are having a wonderful day despite those who would try to ensure otherwise. Stay strong. ...

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