Obligatory Portal 2 reference: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tax4e4hBBZc
To the people who knew me before I went AWOL for a year:
First of all, sorry for suddenly vanishing without a word. Anxiety got the better of me, so instead of doing the right thing and saying I’ll be gone for a while I vanished like a coward. So I’ll just say it outright: I royally fucked up, no excuses. Feel free to call me names for it, I won’t hold it against anyone since it is well deserved. I just ask for the names to at least be creative so that other people reading them can have some fun too.
Saying something wouldn’t have changed much however, health problems made it impossible for me to continue working on my ZeroNet projects, or anything really, for a long time. My condition effects my brain, I can’t think straight for days until I can again for a few days, like being completely drunk for days on end, so the time I can spend productively is limited as you can imagine. Had to move back in with my parents, I live in a different city now, but at least the internet is better here. My condition hasn’t really gotten better, just different, despite dozens of visits to doctors, but I’m starting to get back on track despite the situation.
I still love ZeroNet and still strongly believe fighting censorship is a fight worth fighting at almost all costs and decentralization is the way to do it, especially now where censorship is on the rise again all around the world, so here I am again.
I’m not going to go into too much detail of what exactly happened, because as you know if you’ve followed me before on ZeroNet, I’m here anonymously and want to remain that way as long as I can.
I won’t be able to be as active as I was before, and I’ll likely need some time to get reacquainted with the source code of my ZeroNet sites, especially the SQL parts which I still hate passionately, and there are probably lots of new ZeroNet features I need to learn, but once I’ve managed to do that there’ll be new updates to my current projects and new projects for sure.
And please don’t see this post as me fishing for sympathy due to my medical situation, I’m not and I don’t want it, if it were up to me I’d say this is the first and the last time it is even mentioned, I just feel I owe it to people to try to explain at least a little bit of why I was away for so long, as much as I can without risking my anonymity, and why going forward I might be unavailable for a few days every now and then when my condition kicks in again too hard.
Also, a big thanks to whoever paid the fee to keep the ZeroPolls namecoin domain running in my absence. I said before I so rudely vanished that’s why I don’t like the idea of using domains, and instead prefer using just the hashes. If someone hadn’t kept the domain registered, all of the ZeroPolls.bit links people shared would have stopped working in my absence, while the hashes just keep working forever, so they are way better in my opinion.
Alright, I think that’s it for now. Oh, one more thing… You won’t believe how sad I am that I missed the launch of ZeroMe. I was looking forward to that so much T_T.
PS: I posted this to both of my blogs just so people see I’m back, just so you aren’t confused if you follow both blogs, if anyone still is.